Did you ever just have one of those days where you feel like you have not one ounce left to give? .... yesterday was just one of those days. Livi and I were getting on each others nerves. There are days that Livi seems to just really test the last amount of patience I have and yesterday it was in short supply.It's really hard to articulate how days like yesterday drain me and make me feel like the worst mother in the whole wide world.


I knew raising a toddler would be hard work. I did not know it would be this hard, I was not prepared for days like this. If you ask me raising a toddler with sensory & attachment issues makes it even more challenging because its hard to discipline for sensory seeking behaviors. When attachment parenting you have a different approach always taking into account why the child is behaving that way. Always taking into account those invisible handicaps that are contributing to the behavior.


I sometimes feel like I'm always trying to mend her, giving, pouring love into her and you know what it's exhausting. Its utterly exhausting.Sometimes I want to chuck all this attachment stuff and just parent her the way I would a home grown child. If I put her in Time out and walk away I worry that its not effective for a PI child and that I'm sending the wrong message and abandoning her... so I do Time in and that takes more effort and energy. All of this attachment parenting takes so much effort.


This may sound crazy but I often feel like I'm in an abusive relationship with my girl...the physical wounds, the emotional, the all take and no give... I keep plugging along, forging ahead hopeful that I'm making a difference. At some point I need a break and need to fill my tank so I can keep giving. I'm on Empty at this point.


Today is a new day.... Have a Great weekend Everyone

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