So we have been home for a year now. Our toddler is becoming more self sufficient, she is doing more and more for herself and when I see her playing with little friends my thoughts have been drifting to whether or not we will add another child to our family. Lately I’m seeing pregnant women wherever I turn. I still feel that sense of longing to get and be pregnant. That inner craving that I think most women can relate to. We have no intentions of going through that whole IVF nightmare all over again. So unless a miracle occurs and we do get pregnant, we welcome miracles around here. We rationally assume that if we want to build our family we will do so again through adoption. That raises many questions.


As I write this I’m perfectly content with things the way they are. I’m happily & utterly exhausted at the end of each day. My days are busy and filled with trips to therapy for Livi’s sensory issues. I don’t think that at this moment I want to venture unto the adoption road again. I do feel that we have room in our hearts and home for another child. I see how Livi plays with other children, and I wonder what the future holds for us.

When going through the process we were home study approved for two children. While the thought of adopting two children at once scared me at that time. We were open to whatever came our way. I was never one to say I wanted a huge family. I guess I always wanted two children. During our adoption, after struggling with infertility I just wanted to be a Mom so badly. I was desperately longing to parent a child.


As soon as we stepped off the plane…. new child in arms. People questioned if we would adopt again. I just wanted to enjoy my daughter. I did not want to think about it. I just wanted to enjoy and get happily wrapped up in Motherhood. I would love more children but want to focus on the one we have. I want to enjoy every minute. More on this topic tomorrow.


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